This week is all about psychic and paranormal experiences. Through these posts, I hope to open up the unseen world to you. Enjoy!
My first encounter with Everything (a personification) was, as you can imagine, incredible. Not in the mind – blowing way, but in a quite ‘human’ way if I were to describe it as such. This memory is one of the most vivid and detailed memories I have.
I was 14 back then, and had realized I was different from others. This made me feel very vulnerable. Worst of all, I felt completely alone. Wasn’t up to the standards of normal middle schoolers apparently. Not that it would bother my family much. What mattered were the grades, right?
Truth be told, this wasn’t all foreign to me. I wasn’t too sure if I hated having no social life either. Maybe it had just become routine? My days would be spent behind the computer, learning how to use the big white box (which was the screen) and then lying down in the darkness of my room, listening to the whispers I would hear around me. It was a solitary life and not healthy emotionally, but it was as it has been said before, my life.
The Lady in Silver
I believe I was having a false awakening. It was strange, because there were no darkness around. No shadow self present. At that time, I did not know what the shadow self was, so I just referred to it as ‘The Darkness’. Original, I know. I went to the living room, which was quite big and nicely furnished with ‘quality merchandise’. There was a green sofa in front of four large windows. Someone was sitting there. Knowing this was a dream, I wasn’t all that concerned, but I was nervous. I like privacy in my own dreams, you see.
I walked towards the figure. More and more I became aware of this electrical energy that was very very busy (a tell – tale sign of elemental energy) and very tight and powerful. By tight and powerful, I mean it felt like a grid that could easily hold you down or push you off some ledge if you have played The Legend of Zelda.
To a human, it felt uncomfortable. I stopped. The figure in front of me was a woman, which is not surprising as I’ve always felt closer to female spiritual entities than male ones. She was sitting there, wearing a very detailed silver dress, holding a tea cup in her hand with a neutral expression. Her face was angel – like. Young and old, airy but austere. The hair was very long and… can you guess it? Silvery. What caught me off – guard however, were her eyes. They looked like they had blue vortexes with a white center as the retina. Reminds me of the Milky Way, thinking back.
I thought she was an angel. I didn’t like angels. They were too goody – goody. I think I must have communicated this energetically, since she smirked. I expected her to say something. She didn’t.
“Hi,” I finally said and sat down beside her. I wasn’t aware of it then, but I felt very close to this lady in silver. She began talking to me, but not in words. It was like music. The ‘voice’ reminded me of a calm sea and its waves breaking against the shore. I can’t remember what she said, but then again, I’m not sure I was supposed to. When I woke up, I was filled with awe and another strange feeling. I think it was the only moment that I experienced true awe. Those feelings remain infinite, as I’ll never have such a vivid dream experience again. Loved that poetry, didn’t ya?
The lady in silver returned many many times during my waking life. She’d sit back in my mind, sipping tea and commenting on life’s trivialities. Then she’d leave again, unless I needed her. I never got to know what she was until … THAT DAY.
Dramatic bold lettering aside, the year was 2004.
A Dramatic Turn of Events
It was December, three days before Christmas. Three days before I would joyously open up presents on the evening of the 24th, after a nice meal of pinnekjøtt. Yes, we do it in the evening in Scandinavia. Don’t get sidetracked, OK? I’m trying to build up the atmosphere here.
We were going to celebrate Christmas with my grandparents. They had already flown ahead of us to Gran Canaria. My father and I wondered if we were to travel to Oslo by plane or car. We decided to go with car for the atmosphere and nature. That was the beginning of the end.
The roads were icy, and we were often on the verge of disaster. I remember my father was very nervous, and he needed to smoke to calm himself down. Adding to that, he was also very tired. We stopped at a gas station where we filled the tank with juicy petrol, and then continued on our way.
I had this growing feeling that something would go wrong. It did.
The car was sliding over onto the opposite driving lane. I saw a bright light heading around the corner. A trailer. A twelve ton frightening trailer was heading straight towards us. We were going to front collide, and I was going to die. I remember myself thinking that. I felt etheric energy building up inside of me, and suddenly I found myself in the back seat. I tried to reach out to my fatherr, but there was no arm to reach with, nor voice to project my words. The trailer was engulfed in deep yellow light.
“I am going t –“ Then everything went white. It must only have been a few seconds, but the whiteness was so comforting and.. present. Like it had always been there. Then I was suddenly jerked back into my body right before the collision. The trailer was still shining a deep yellow light. At the point of impact, I couldn’t see a thing. It was all a hazy gray and, then I was thrown into to the real world again. Back to the stark reality that awaited me. Debris, blood, and eventually, tears.
A Silver Lining
I was in an ambulance. I won’t go into what happened between the collision and where I was now finding myself. I was lying on the hard ambulance bed. A worker was measuring my blood pressure. I was quiet and I assume that I was also in shock. My father had been taken away by helicopter and I was being taken to Lillehammer and its hospital.
I stared silently at the silhouettes of trees and the still lake shrouded in darkness. I think I fell asleep. It was probably for the best. Delta waves are beneficial for healing after all.
I was in the whiteness yet again. This time, I wasn’t alone. A very comforting feeling was present. It felt like I was being taken care of. This is not something I can explain very well, but I somehow didn’t feel like Sol anymore. I was observing something else. I saw so many things. Planets, stars, galaxies. Infinity.
I felt like I was reaching out to everything I saw. There was something to be fixed, something to be stabilized. There was a billion thoughts going through my mind. I didn’t catch them all.
Are you alright? A voice asked. The voice was fully audible. I was surprised. “Where am I?” I asked, perplexed.
Questions. Where do you think we are, silly?
Correct, and isn’t it such a wonderFUL feeling?
I didn’t know what to do. I think I was having one of those out of body experiences. I think I knew who I was talking to. “Who are you?” I asked. I am me, the voice responded, sounding amused. Oh, so it was her.
I don’t remember anything other than that, but I knew I had just had my wake up call.
I’d never been so close to a personification before. How did I know it was a personification? It’s nothing I can explain logically. It’s an unmistakable feeling that you’re part of something. It’s a feeling where you simply KNOW you’re the Universe, and the darkness inbetween the stars and galaxies. The cosmic energy I was part of during those moments, was both varied and static, offering a lot of different vibrations. Not goody – goody at all, but still serving our highest purpose. That’s why I decided to call it Everything, to reflect its function. I think our energies melded in that moment, and maybe I witnessed something greater than I otherwise would.
I don’t know why, yet I don’t really care. It was truly one of the worst and best experiences of my life. And you know what? Those make life worth living.
“Infinity. What does it mean to you?
It can signify the point at which you leave reality behind. Or it may just be a mathematical expression to describe the size of our universe. It can symbolize that true love never dies.
In other words, infinity offers you the chance that you’ll find at last what you’ve always been dreaming of.”
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